My spirit was greatly disturbed yesterday , all I wanted to do was cry. Things were not going “my way” and I felt terrible physically. ( I’m due in 4 days)
⁃ My first instinct is to call a friend or family member and tell them my distress. I decided against this.
⁃ My next instinct was to blame my husband and kids for my dissatisfaction and general sadness. I rejected Satan, told him to get away from me. Recalled a few really nice things my husband and kids have done and decided against this too.
⁃ My third instinct was to “dive into self.” How can I feel better? I can go shopping, I can maybe get a babysitter… Maybe I can eat some amazing food….I decided against this as well.
⁃ My next thought was to pray my normal prayer routine…. I struggled through the readings and got nothing out of them. I felt called to read from an old kindle book I haven’t read in years…. here is the excerpt. I did the steps that St Francis de Sales suggest and I feel the sting of sadness dissipate.
⁃ I felt calmer. I felt my composure regained. My friend Adele says “ step away from the disturbances , regain your inner peace “
Sometimes depression can hit me like a brick wall. I often try to “fix” it. Maybe it’s my blood sugar, maybe it’s hormones, maybe it’s postpartum depression…or maybe it’s an attack from satan.
I know other people suffer with this. After reading this book and others I think St Francis De Sales and others may have too.
This is from this book :