Generally, I love being around people , chatting with people, cleaning with people, visiting, cooking, shopping. I love to do everyday things with other people.
However, this season of my life ( young kids, and homeschooling) , it’s often times not possible…
Part of the reason i can’t “handle” social media. I would get too engaged. To me it was counterfeit connections that left me feeling depleted instead of full.
That’s one of the main reasons for this blog , i need to connect with people in a deeper way. It’s really been a lifeline for me to reach people that i want to share life with.
But on a smaller more constant note , i fill this huge desire to connect by texting. Instantly , often , and most of the day.
I text articles, and pictures, and quotes to people.
I text reminders.
I text to do lists.
I text updates on the kids
Sometimes i notice this:
i write a text , and i feel something say, “Don’t send it.”
Me: “Why not? It’s just simple info. I want to send it.”
Voice in my head ( really God but it’s hard to realize that in the moment, it feels more like a feeling than a voice) “Don’t send it.”
So sometimes I say:
Me: “Fine, i don’t know why i can’t send this. I’ll just wait until later.”
Voice: nothing. (At this point, I’m expecting the voice to explain why not to send it but i hear nothing)
⁃ Later, it comes to pass that I’m glad i didn’t send it.
Some conversations in my head sound more like this:
Me : I type a text.
Feeling : “Don’t send this text.”
Me: “But i want to. It’s so simple. Can you come tom?”
Feeling: “Don’t send it.”
Me: “I’m sending it. I don’t want to forget to send it later.”
Me : i press send.
Then i regret it. It’s happened so many times. I sent something and it comes to pass that i should have just let things fall into place.
It’s really me trying to contort aspects of my life that i need to just be in God’s Will.
Maybe I’m the only person that has this inner dialogue about texting, but try it next time you send a text. Before you press send ask God if He wants you to send it or wait to send it. ( even 15 mins)
It’s good practice for Hearing the voice of God, as well as practicing obedience.
I felt like the Readings in Mass today were a confirmation of this reflection …
1 SM 3:3B-10, 19
Samuel was sleeping in the temple of the LORD
where the ark of God was.
The LORD called to Samuel, who answered, “Here I am.”
Samuel ran to Eli and said, “Here I am. You called me.”
“I did not call you, ” Eli said. “Go back to sleep.”
So he went back to sleep.
Again the LORD called Samuel, who rose and went to Eli.
“Here I am, ” he said. “You called me.”
But Eli answered, “I did not call you, my son. Go back to sleep.”
At that time Samuel was not familiar with the LORD,
because the LORD had not revealed anything to him as yet.
The LORD called Samuel again, for the third time.
Getting up and going to Eli, he said, “Here I am. You called me.”
Then Eli understood that the LORD was calling the youth.
So he said to Samuel, “Go to sleep, and if you are called, reply,
Speak, LORD, for your servant is listening.”
When Samuel went to sleep in his place,
the LORD came and revealed his presence,
calling out as before, “Samuel, Samuel!”
Samuel answered, “Speak, for your servant is listening.”
Samuel grew up, and the LORD was with him,
not permitting any word of his to be without effect.